Learning Life

So through this whole anecdote I'm about to unfold before you, I have come to learn a few things. 1) My husband is incredibly patient and loving. 2) He's pretty wise. 3) When Heavenly Father is trying to teach you something, do NOT fight Him, because in the end kicking and screaming, you will learn it. So you can do it the easy way, or the hard way. I chose the hard way.

Before we left for our week vacation I was at wits end with my job. Getting beat up, harassed and yelled at by people you're only trying to help was getting to me. As we were getting ready to leave I was thinking", Ok this vacation will be exactly the break I need. I'll go back to work ready and refreshed." No. No that's not what happened (me and my naiveté right?). My first day back I had a break down. The next day: break down. I had one pretty much everyday that first week back! I decided I couldn't do it, that I hated my job and I wanted a new one that was easier and more convenient, and where I wasn't going to be stressed or abused (yeah like that exists). I came up with all these reasons as to why I needed another job. I began to search desperately to no avail, even in my prayers I got nothing. Then one day, Chance said I need to be more positive, and maybe Heavenly Father is trying to teach me something. He said that all jobs are going to be hard, and my reasons for looking for another were insane. I was of course a little butt-hurt, but I knew he was right.

I changed my attitude, and I don't despise work now... but it's still pretty tough. My new and more righteous reason for looking for a new job is for better hours so I can spend more time with my husband. He works days, I work nights, we make it work... but still. I'm content with work and I understand that honestly, no matter where I go it's going to be hard. Chance was right. I'm looking for another job, and there's some hope for where my sister works, but still waiting to hear back. Now I can hear Father a little better, and am more open to His council, and am doing my best at following His guidance. I know that He will help my find a new job. I believe He taught me what I needed to learn (kicking and screaming), and He understands and supports my reasons. On Sunday a speaker recapped on what faith is. "Faith is hoping for things unseen". I have Faith that Father will support me in my righteous endeavors. I don't know if the job I'm vying for will work out, but I Know that it's because Heavenly Father has something better planned.

I want to thank Chance for being so patient with me, for always listening to me talk things through, for giving me the council I needed, and for not being afraid to tell me what I needed to hear.

Side Note: Yesterday we had the missionaries for dinner (yum!), and one elder is struggling with issues against a particular group of elders in his mission, and this week he has three exchanges with all of them! He was totally not looking forward to it. I told him that Heavenly Father is going to keep doing that to him until he learns to like those Elders. He hung his head and said yeah... I know.... but I could tell he didnt want to accept it. No one wants to hear it, but it is sooooo true!